Happy birthday to Allie, Caetie and Ben!!!!!
Today is Caetie's 16th birthday and I hope she has the best one ever. I love them all very, very much!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my first grandchild. She will always hold a deep place in my heart. I can still see her rocking in my blue swivel rocker on Irma singing, "Going up yonder" We have laughed and cried together so many times and I pray we get to spend eternity together!
Monday, February 7
Monday, January 31
Grandchildren birthdays...
- Tomorrow will be Allie's birthday, the 7th will be Caetie's and the 21st will be Ben's! I hope they have the best birthday ever! They deserve the very best God can give them. They have been such a blessing to my life in the years I have been their Grami. I love them dearly and I pray for them continually. I pray they sense in their hearts and minds that no one can ever take them from my heart, no one can ever stop my prayers or my love! God's freedoms and ways of justice are beyond any words or actions I could ever muster.
- Father, forgive them for they know not what they do and be it unto them according to their works are all new testament words. I will rest in a loving, merciful, good, all knowing and long suffering God. I desperately need him and don't know what I would do without his great grace and sustaining power.
- I love you Lord and I lift my voice to worship you
- Oh my soul rejoice
- Take joy my king, in what you hear
- Let it be a sweet, sweet, sound in your ear!
Friday, December 31
Randomness
It's the 365th day of the year. I hope and pray that the God of all creation will bring forth miracles on top of miracles for us all this year.
Crazy how your mind works. I had a dream about a guy that I loved when I was 13, 14, 15 years old. Isn't that nuts? It happens ever so often that I will dream about past experiences and bring a new twist in the plot of the subconscious. Weird isn't it?
Continuing on my randomness streak here. This morning getting ready I had to tuck in the tag on the back of my blouse and all these random memories came flooding. It's so strange the simplistic acts that can trigger a memory. Eva Jackson used to tease me about my short arms and I have to agree with her. I have a difficult time with tasks with these short arms. An additional memory triggered was Charlie always helped me with tags, zippers, clasps, etc...So that triggered the thought of what minuscule seconds in your daily routine can flood your heart and mind, suddenly taking you way back in time. In an instant such a simple maneuver of tucking a tag brought 2 people, 2 situations to mind. I know that I am not the only one this happens too, but thought I would put the experience to print.
I returned back to my routine from Christmas with such a burden for people I love. Burdened for those that have strayed so far and don't even know it. Burdened for the loss of time that can never be redeemed, it's finished. But in the words of Brother Jerry, it may be finished, but it's not over. Of course he was speaking regarding Jesus being on the cross and saying "it is finished" and yet it wasn't over. I have needs, hopes, dreams, desires just like every one else and the older you get, the more honed your skills are at the proper perspective on life. Time is short, life isn't always fair, and you just have to place your life, your heart, your soul, your needs, your hopes, your desires at the feet of Jesus and say "here I am Lord, your will be done"! I can't control any of the situations that cause me the most heartache. I teeter and totter back and forth on whether to say something or just pray and let it go. If your loved ones were in a burning house you wouldn't question whether to save them or not, you would go straight into action. Yet I know I have done my part in teaching by example the priorities of having Jesus as number 1 in your life. He will have no other place. The world is pressing in ever so subtle, daily, pressing, pressing it's way into the lives of those we hold dear. God please have mercy and open the eyes of those I pray for and love dearly! PLEASE move in me, for me, and for the ones I love. Move us by whatever means are necessary to create a surrendered heart to you. Move us closer to you and that will automatically move us closer to each other. My heart longs for resolutions in so many areas. I pray I will do my part to be where God would have me to be for his perfect timing in all things. I pray I never contribute in any way, shape, form, or fashion to holding the hand of God back by disobedience. Clean hands and a pure heart, broken, humbled before him will get his attention. Keep me close to thee for the rest of my life here on this earth and let me stand in the gap for those you gave me to love!
Crazy how your mind works. I had a dream about a guy that I loved when I was 13, 14, 15 years old. Isn't that nuts? It happens ever so often that I will dream about past experiences and bring a new twist in the plot of the subconscious. Weird isn't it?
Continuing on my randomness streak here. This morning getting ready I had to tuck in the tag on the back of my blouse and all these random memories came flooding. It's so strange the simplistic acts that can trigger a memory. Eva Jackson used to tease me about my short arms and I have to agree with her. I have a difficult time with tasks with these short arms. An additional memory triggered was Charlie always helped me with tags, zippers, clasps, etc...So that triggered the thought of what minuscule seconds in your daily routine can flood your heart and mind, suddenly taking you way back in time. In an instant such a simple maneuver of tucking a tag brought 2 people, 2 situations to mind. I know that I am not the only one this happens too, but thought I would put the experience to print.
I returned back to my routine from Christmas with such a burden for people I love. Burdened for those that have strayed so far and don't even know it. Burdened for the loss of time that can never be redeemed, it's finished. But in the words of Brother Jerry, it may be finished, but it's not over. Of course he was speaking regarding Jesus being on the cross and saying "it is finished" and yet it wasn't over. I have needs, hopes, dreams, desires just like every one else and the older you get, the more honed your skills are at the proper perspective on life. Time is short, life isn't always fair, and you just have to place your life, your heart, your soul, your needs, your hopes, your desires at the feet of Jesus and say "here I am Lord, your will be done"! I can't control any of the situations that cause me the most heartache. I teeter and totter back and forth on whether to say something or just pray and let it go. If your loved ones were in a burning house you wouldn't question whether to save them or not, you would go straight into action. Yet I know I have done my part in teaching by example the priorities of having Jesus as number 1 in your life. He will have no other place. The world is pressing in ever so subtle, daily, pressing, pressing it's way into the lives of those we hold dear. God please have mercy and open the eyes of those I pray for and love dearly! PLEASE move in me, for me, and for the ones I love. Move us by whatever means are necessary to create a surrendered heart to you. Move us closer to you and that will automatically move us closer to each other. My heart longs for resolutions in so many areas. I pray I will do my part to be where God would have me to be for his perfect timing in all things. I pray I never contribute in any way, shape, form, or fashion to holding the hand of God back by disobedience. Clean hands and a pure heart, broken, humbled before him will get his attention. Keep me close to thee for the rest of my life here on this earth and let me stand in the gap for those you gave me to love!
Sunday, December 19
Merry Christmas
I would like to wish all the people I love and there are too many to list a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!
God is so good to send us a Savior and he is still the light of the world. The holiday seasons are called many things to many people, but his birth is still celebrated around this entire world! God has such a great sense of humor. People get so distressed about being polictically correct. I want to shout from the rooftop HO HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS!
This will be the first time that I haven't been allowed to give my grandchildren Caetie, Toby, Allie, Silas, Genesis and Ben something for Christmas. I won't go into the details of why other than that is what Danny and Wendy say. As each child gets 18, if they choose to have a relationship with me again that is what the parents say. I love those children dearly and hate they are caught in such situations. I pray God sends a healing balm to their lives and that they find peace in their hearts and minds. I will continue to pray for them as always. I pray God will always wrap his merciful arms around them through Godly people and keep them from the evil of this world. Heaven will be worth it all and NO ONE will keep me from anything God has prepared for me! Hallelujah, AMEN!
I don't really need anything except lots of things money can't buy and I will trust my heavenly Father who never fails!
Merry Christmas to my family, my friends, my co worker and to all the world. Jesus is still the reason for the season!
God is so good to send us a Savior and he is still the light of the world. The holiday seasons are called many things to many people, but his birth is still celebrated around this entire world! God has such a great sense of humor. People get so distressed about being polictically correct. I want to shout from the rooftop HO HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS!
This will be the first time that I haven't been allowed to give my grandchildren Caetie, Toby, Allie, Silas, Genesis and Ben something for Christmas. I won't go into the details of why other than that is what Danny and Wendy say. As each child gets 18, if they choose to have a relationship with me again that is what the parents say. I love those children dearly and hate they are caught in such situations. I pray God sends a healing balm to their lives and that they find peace in their hearts and minds. I will continue to pray for them as always. I pray God will always wrap his merciful arms around them through Godly people and keep them from the evil of this world. Heaven will be worth it all and NO ONE will keep me from anything God has prepared for me! Hallelujah, AMEN!
I don't really need anything except lots of things money can't buy and I will trust my heavenly Father who never fails!
Merry Christmas to my family, my friends, my co worker and to all the world. Jesus is still the reason for the season!
Saturday, December 4
The God of the mountain is still God in the valley...
What vulnerable creatures we are. How frail at times we seem to ourselves, to others. Then there are times when we feel like we could conquer the world with our pinkie finger. I am very thankful that God is still God while I ride the roller coaster of life. He is my one constant in all of life's ups and downs. Lately I have felt such a peace, such an assurance that God is in control, and I will not fret what man says or does where I am concerned. Sometimes it's so laughable to me that any man or woman would even consider that they had their own life totally in control. Yes, I make decisions every day, that is my part, to make the right choices each day. God did give that control to me. But ALL the rest is truly 100 percent up to him. How arrogant and haughty we humans can be in our own sense of righteousness! I know that without God's wonderful grace and mercy, and his word, I wouldn't have a clue what to do. So again, my stability in all the chaos of this life, I find such strength and refuge in God's ability to get me through this experience of life 'SAVED"! He is such a great, big, wonderful God. He knows my thoughts afar off, meaning before I even think them. Wow! He knows my down sitting, my uprising, he sees all the hungers, desires, wants, needs of this child of his. Wow! And the most wonderful part he cares. He is never busy, stressed, and distraught about my crazy mixed up world. He knows there are so many things I just plain don't understand. How can anyone say they love God and be cruel to others is something I will never understand and quite frankly don't want too. I have been accused of so many false accusations from my own flesh and blood. It leaves you scratching your head sometimes. Why can't people just talk it out, so that you can try to understand the others perspective? We all have things about us God helps us work on. If you say you have no weak tendencies or issues to work on, I am afraid my friend, you are deceived. The key is being willing to face yourself and ask God to help you make a conscious, concerted effort to change. Without God I can do NOTHING. I depend on him to change me, mold me, make me after his will. So many times we don't want to face that being like Jesus requires suffering. We soon forget the joys and benefits that come straight from the portals of heaven when we are bombarded on every side. Yet we will never know what we are made of without the trying of our faith. Most of the heartbreaking situations in my life are totally and completely out of my control to change. Why? Because God is the only one who can change hearts who are willing. I can't. I love my family, I love my children, I love my grandchildren and that won't ever change. The path of my life I walk each day is steadily being led to my eternal destination. I willingly place ALL of it in his hands. I place my heart completely in the hands of the God of all power both in heaven and in earth. I know he never fails. He is my God when I am on the mountains of this life and he is my God when I am in the deepest valley and see no way out. I praise him with all my heart and soul. Have your way Lord, get all the glory you can, just let me make it all the way to the end with clean hands and a pure heart.
I especially thank the Lord for being able to share Christmas from my heart and my pocketbook this year. It's really been fun to be able to buy this year. God knows those that I want to give to but have been hindered. He keeps good records. He see motives and intentions and I am truly happy to know that my God gets the final say. And whatever happens in my future, making heaven will be worth all the sorrow that here befalls!
Oh come all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant
Oh come ye, oh come ye to Bethlehem
Come and behold him, born the King of angels
Oh come let us adore him
Oh come let us adore him
Oh come let us adore him
Christ, the Lord
My hope and prayer is that all your heart's desire is fulfilled in knowing he is still the light of the world and the king of kings. Come let us adore him!
Tuesday, September 28
LONG TIME NO BLOG
It's been a very long time since I blogged. Wonder if I have anything interesting to say? I have been on a roller coaster lately with some health issues. I am still working for Vanderbilt Medical Group. I love my family, of course that hasn't EVER changed. So many situations in my life that only God could straighten out. I know I can't. The season changes these past few days have been absolutely breathtakingly beautiful. I LOVE THIS TIME OF THE YEAR, however with that being said, it also brings my most difficult days. The days getting shorter and the earlier darkness really affects me profoundly. I had no idea till I started keeping track of the pattern over the years. The actual lack of sunshine affects me, I know it's crazy, but true nonetheless. Ask my 30 year friendships. Anywho, I have some mixed memories this time of the year too. Some great family memories, some very, very sad ones too. The holidays are quickly upon us and I love, love being with my grandchildren. Yet there is a very big part of my heart missing at all times that brings some really strong emotions this time of year. PLEASE remember me and my family in your prayers. I know this is all over the place, didn't feel like separating each thought into it's own paragraph. Yeah, I know, LAZY! This coming up weekend is Family Retreat in Murfreesboro and I am so thankful for the inspiration that God has given me. Even though my family is broken, I STILL LOVE FAMILY related activities. Strong families make for a strong church, a strong community, a strong nation and I still believe this with all my heart! The next weekend Lance, Erika, Kailee and Maddie are coming to visit and we have some exciting plans made. I love memories with my family. With the health issues I am chronically facing these days, I know they will shorten my life and my quality of life, so while I have both I don't want to miss a second. I also want to leave this world with the only peace I have ever known JESUS!
Tears in my eyes as I listen to the song by Michael Buble " I want to come home"....O Lord how much I want my home restored!
Tears in my eyes as I listen to the song by Michael Buble " I want to come home"....O Lord how much I want my home restored!
Friday, February 5
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