The Road less traveled...

Okay it's 5:52 am Macon GA time...I can't sleep any longer, so I decided to blog for all you blog freaks...

Where am I going? What am I doing? Where do I belong? My life is full of questions on the quest we call life...I am settled with what I know in the scriptures...I am settled in my love for my family....I am settled in most areas of my life except economics...What do I want to do for a living? I am starting to think I want to return to school again...lol...yes almost 50 years old and I want to be a student once again....When I was a student in my childhood, I truly loved school and I was a good student...The thing is I don't know what I want to be...I could take a trade like hair and learn that and be my own boss, which flexibility of schedule appeals to me most...Or I could take more medical classes to add to the experience and knowledge I already have and love and work in that environment...Or I could go in a totally different direction and take Christian Family counselling...Yes you heard me right...with the love of the Lord in my heart, the love for people and my heart for family, I would love to minister to hurting families...I am not about making lots of money, but being happy in what I do and making a difference in people's lives... I have asked God so many times for Wisdom that is beyond my years and with the experiences I have had in my life, I feel I have something to give...

Next subject...Pray for Erika...she is close to having Maddie and she is packing and moving right at a time when she needs to be under the least amount of stress...We all know that stressful pregnancies make for crying babies...Pray for Kailee's acid reflux, it's so terrible, she has a constant rattle and she still can't go off the meds....Pray for Charlie...pray for all my family...Pray for the Parade of Nations, pray for the Assembly, pray, pray, pray...Pray without ceasing and there is always so much to pray for that it should be an easy one for us all...I want prayer to be my breath of life....

Next subject...Now you see why I don't blog that much...I pour too much of my heart and soul into these silly things and I know there are people who are lurking I don't want in my business...You know who you are...get a life and leave mine alone in the name of Jesus...lol

Last but not least, I would like to publicly tell the Lord how much I appreciate him from the bottom of my heart his provisions for me in the last 5 years...It's been such an amazing journey and I have lived on less money than I ever thought imaginable...My car has been a faithful, dependable mode of transportation...my health isn't 100% but the Lord has kept catastrophe from my doorstep...I have been able to travel in the work of the Lord in many different areas....I have been able to give of my time more freely than ever before...I have been able to give to those I love when it seemed impossible to do it...I have grown stronger, more secure in my trust in the Lord in the midst of losing it all...What an awesome God we serve!!!! So many wonderful experiences that you can't even describe...Yes I have been to the depths of hurt I didn't know existed, but it has given me such a deeper appreciation for what is truly important in life...God, your family and your spiritual family....I knew all this in my head, but until you have journeyed the long dark nights of devastation that I have you can't truly understand the depth of God's ability to sustain you...I have said many times, I wouldn't have chosen this journey for myself and if God had of shown me this journey in 1980 I would have said NO a thousand times No, but in his tender love and mercy for me he waited till I finished the preparations he made for me all along the way to hold to his unchanging hand in it all...I love the Lord with all my heart, I want to be his heart to this lost and dying world, I love my family more than words can say, I want to live in such a way that God will have the ultimate mercy on them all, I love The Church of God more than I could tell you, She's been in the fire but the fire couldn't burn her, she's been fed to lions but the lions couldn't eat her, She's been in the flood but the floods couldn't drown her, she's fought allot of wars but never defeated...Jesus purchased her with his own blood and he will present her unto himself without spot or wrinkle or any such thing...Jesus was ridiculed, mocked, lied on, humiliated and degraded beyond anything we can imagine and he kept right on doing the right thing and moving forward toward his completion of God's will and I just want to be a part of what God is doing in these last days among us...Thank you Jesus for seeing something in me that would stand in the midst of my fiery furnace, that would stand in the midst of tribulation, stand while I lost my marriage, my family traditions, my home and my livelihood, but you oh Lord have never left me and I am waiting for the restoration of all things you have for my life whether it's in this life or the life to come...Just let me stand with clean hands and a pure heart...Please don't ever allow pride or any other spirit in me or anyone else to close my eyes in deception of any kind...Thank you for caring for me in ways that only you understand...